vivala | 寒露

One might expect Shu to be participating in the Harvest Festival festivities. After all. That's... her expectation, in some sense. Not simply her job, but the reason for her existence. However, there were times when one needed to take on multiple roles, as unpleasant as some of them may be. And her other role, for a thousand years...

is the keeper of lost souls.

The Collapsals (that was a Sami term - the Yanese had a different term for the demons, but Esthere language mapped more closely onto non-Yanese words, she had found) and their incursions had been held at bay by Shu's powers for so long, she had almost forgotten what it was like not to have a heavy fraction of her power leached constantly from her into the land. Vice-versa... after a year in this place, it was good to have a reminder of the perils that still awaited at home.

Shu spends much of the following weeks in the research facility, cleaning up bodies, putting down monstrosities, praying, burning incense. On the gates outside the laboratory, she has spent many hours tying ribbons to the bars. One ribbon for each soul devoured by the disgraceful experiments conducted within. Though their flesh had been corrupted, their beings, she trusted, would return to the earth once flesh had been purged.

Not that she knew of 'being' outside flesh. But the people of all lands believed so fervently in such a thing, surely it must exist. And if it did not...

Then she, if no one else, would remember, such that they lived on.

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She unlocks the door of her unit and ushers Donnie in. He is seated at the table, fussed over, and subjected to a plate of snacks thrust in front of him. A familiar ritual. Once the kettle is set on the stove, Shu settles herself beside him and helps herself to a sort of biscuit with cream.

"...What is on your mind, Donnie? With such a morose expression, you will frighten the crops back into the slumber of their seed cases."

purplexing

Shu's dwelling is a comforting space at least. Donnie settles, gnawing mindlessly on the offered snacks as she busies herself with getting the tea prepped.

He winces when Shu breaks the silence with her inquiry, letting out a sigh then.

"Too much. It's...kind of ironic for all the planning ahead that I try to account for, I...guess I never planned that far ahead." Or maybe it's more that there are too many uncertainties for the after, and too many things he'd been focused on for the more present planning. It seemed dangerous to think too far ahead when the Empire had started hitting back harder.

"Why, does the prospect fill you with such dread?" Shu smiles and gently reaches out to lift his chin. "You ought fervently await such an event with exultation. Think of all the good you will be able to do, after this suffering and conflict."

She lowers her hand.

"But it is premature to foresee victory, of course. I am not saying to become complacent, only... that it is wise to see beyond one's immediate surroundings. Such a shift in power could easily face complications if the Corsairs are not prepared."

The kettle begins to whistle in the kitchen. Shu stands and busies herself laying out the necessary accoutrements for the tea. One might remember that many months ago, she had played a game with the Corsairs, taking on the role of a fortune teller. Perhaps she is foreseeing a need to speak these words now, lest certain eventualities come as a surprise.

"We do not need to dwell on such things if they bring you unease."

Donnie looks up at her gentle gesture, which just makes things harder, really. He's going to have to say good-bye, once they get control of the gate, once they can send everyone home. That's always been part of the plan, part of Fixing Everything, but it's simultaneously a part he dreads. He's in no way prepared to deal with missing everyone he's come to know as comrade and friend.

"I know..."

That's not even touching upon old anxieties about whether he'll be able to find his family or not. The struggle with that hasn't changed very much, but the tension from the Empire and the push for action from the Corsairs had made it less ideal to try and look.

It's dumb, childish, even, he thinks. He tries to shove those thoughts and feelings down, absently brushing at crumbs on the table to gather them in a tiny pile.

"...it's hard not to. I know we're making so much progress, but I know we can't get too cocky about things either, even if it looks like we're so much closer to things than we ever were. But there's still a lot to do."

Quite likely, this is exactly what she wanted to prepare him for. If all proceeded as planned, there would be a time in the not-too-distant future when they would have to bid goodbye. For Shu, who had seen many goodbyes, it would be another wound on a well-scarred heart. For Donnie, who was young, she feared the loss would take some time to overcome.

(More importantly... who would plan out his future for him?)

And so it was better to acknowledge it upfront...

"Of course."

A gentle stream of tea cascades into his cup before she slides it in front of him. "But we will continue to persevere. The morale is at a high, even -- despite what just faced." In the grand scheme of things, they had taken an important facility of the Empire's despite the... atrocities. "What do you wish for, Donnie? Do not say what you ought to do or what the Corsairs are fighting for. What is it that you would like?"

Donnie pulls the tea cup closer, letting his hands linger over the steaming contents. It's already getting chillier again, and he wonders how the winter preparations will go if they decide to push for more of an advance against the Empire.

"...." It's a difficult question Shu sets before him, but then it's just as well that she narrows it down for him so he doesn't have to consider any of the politics. His lower lip quivers almost dangerously but he presses it firmly against the other, carefully curling his fingers around the teacup, claws he's neglected to clip for the past month or so clicking lightly against the sides.

"...I just want to go home," he says quietly.

She observes the claws, of course. There isn't much that escapes her notice. She also observes that now is not the time to chastise him about bodily hygiene, even if teenagers needed to learn that just because one had important duties, one did not allow one's keratin to grow unattended for 30 whole days.

"...Of course."

Her hand slides over his.

"We shall find where they are." She will not add much more. 'Even if you put it off. Even if you're afraid.' Whatever it was that was keeping him from doing so, it clearly wasn't something he was going to get through on his own.

The claws are natural! He'd only started trimming them because the Imperials didn't like him scratching up their furniture and floors.

It's an old dance, this conversation. His reasons are still the same, but he can't get himself out of the mental trenches he digs, the paralyzing thoughts of the what-if's. He's afraid to render himself useless to the Corsairs if the worst of his fears turn out to be truth. But he's afraid of being too late too.

Donnie slips his hands from his teacup to curl around Shu's hand instead.

"...after this. After we finish things, or if we take Innistis." He looks determined, but he feels like he'll easily change his mind, reconsider everything and make up another excuse, which is why he says it aloud. To have someone as witness, who will push him to hold to it.

"One of those may be a bit further down the path than the other."

She smiles. Because with any luck, they might be taking Innistis sometime in the near (?) future. At least, with the progress they've been making. But she solemnly takes his hand and then lifts it in the air, shaking it up and down as if they are making a promise.

"I shall hold you to it."

No takebacks. Not again.

"And if you would like... I shall come with you again." As she had offered the last time. But she had some thoughts of her own, too. There was no reason Donnie needed to start searching for his family after that benchmark. It would be much easier if they had some preliminary information prior to that moment...

He knows, which is why he's set those parameters- so he won't have an excuse to avoid it again. Because he doesn't know how hard the Empire will come down on them, what stops they'll pull if they wait until everything is over, how many more will die and who all might become collateral. But at least if Innistis is under their control, then it'll be easier to go to where Donnie knew home to be, without having to worry about Imperial patrols.

That's as far as he allows himself to think, trying to yank his thoughts off of the what-if's. He nods at Shu.

"Please..."

Don't make that face, Donnie. Shu has to close her eyes briefly and assume a philosophically wise and distant expression, like a sort of matronly Buddha - mostly to give herself time to dispel her fantasies of reaching out and pulling both of his cheeks like mochi.

Ah... youth.

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Alright, that was possibly too long.

"Of course, Donnie. No matter what you require, I shall be there."

((This seems like a natural spot to close if you would like to! But I'm also happy to continue and segue into a different topic, let me know!))

((OOC: gbo;efjj Oh Shu. I think that's a good closing though, yes!))

Viva La DWRP

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